I wish I could tell you to leave me alone. I wish I could tell you my business is my business. I wish I could tell you that what I need is the opposite of what you think I need. I wish I could tell you to back off. I wish I could tell you that I don’t need your opinion. I wish I could tell you that I need my space. I wish I could, but if I told you then you would blame it on people I talk to and hang out with. You would say I am being selfish. You would tell me what to do. You would tell me I’m wrong. You would tell me that THIS is what is good for me. You already have. I don’t even have a choice. I wish I never began this. I wish I never had to be in charge. I wish I didn’t have to cry in front of you. I wish I never had to tell you how I felt. I wish my stomach didn’t have to turn when you want to get coffee. I wish you trusted me. I wish you didn’t suspect me. I wish you didn’t talk about me to everyone and tell everyone my problems. I wish I didn’t have to make excuses to not be there. I wish all of this but it doesn’t matter because I am completely stuck here. I have to talk to you. I will cry. I can’t make excuses. I DON’T NEED THIS. At least not how you think I do….
You are the most amazing person I have ever met. I could have so many other guys and no one understands why I just want you. There is just something about you. The way you make me feel, no one has ever made me feel that way. I see something in you no one else does.
is wrong with me? i though i got used to being jealous. but i guess you can’t cause it comes back and it makes me feel sick. and it makes my eyes sting and want to punch a wall. i don’t even understand why i feel this way because i have no reason to but i can’t help it. i hate being jealous. i hate it.